Letter from the Editor
Dear Infusion Readers, As Editor-in-Chief, I had hoped that my first letter to you, our readership, would be to introduce this year’s final print issue. When the 2019-2020 Infusion team assembled last fall, we set out to bring you a year of exclusive online content — creative and informative writing, photography, experiments in design and curation — all culminating in one print magazine to serve as record of all we, Fulbright grantees and alumni, had learned and experienced this year. However, as the world shifts to adapt to a global crisis such as COVID-19, I find it necessary to write you a different letter. Allow me to summarize, briefly, the circumstances that have been governing Fulbright Korea grantees over the past few months. Beginning in February, grantees were given regular opportunities to voluntarily depart South Korea as concern surrounding COVID-19 continued to rise. On March 19th, the U.S. Department of State issued a Level 4 Travel Advisory (Do Not Travel) to South Korea — the highest level possible. Subsequently, the following conclusions were reached: Fulbright Korea would end all programming for the grant year by April 12th, recommending departure for all remaining grantees. Those who choose to stay in the country do so as private citizens. Come April 12th, we will all officially be Fulbright Program alumni. It is in accordance with these decisions that we must announce that Infusion will suspend all publication activities for the remainder of the originally-planned grant year. However, this isn’t quite the end of us yet. During these tumultuous past weeks, Infusion’s staff remained enthusiastic and dedicated, even through all the delays and personal upheaval. I’m thankful for their commitment, through which it is possible that we still have great content, submitted by our last deadline, ready to publish on our website over the next few weeks, after which we will officially wrap up the publication year. I must make it abundantly clear that by continuing operation past April 12th, we are switching from Fulbright English Teaching Assistant (ETA) management to Fulbright alumni management. As of next week, we will see all of our grant statuses changing, and therefore temporarily be renamed The Fulbright Korea Alumni Infusion Literary Magazine. I want to take a moment to acknowledge the tireless work that has been done on behalf of all Fulbright grantees in South Korea. Korean American Education Commission (KAEC) Chair Mitchell Moss, Executive Director Byungok Kwon, Executive Assistant Heidi Little, ETA Program Coordinator Isabel Moua, and ETA Program Assistant Young Sook Lee, and more KAEC personnel who have worked behind-the-scenes have been fully committed to their mission to support ETAs through these unprecedented times. Infusion is always appreciative of KAEC’s support, and as an ETA myself, I am grateful for the commission’s appropriate and compassionate response. Lastly, I want to thank the 2019-2020 Infusion team. They’ve been understanding of endless schedule changes, present during virtual meetings that bridged time zones, and willing to adapt to keep Infusion going through all of this uncertainty. I’m so thankful for their trust, and I am relieved that they may now be more able to direct time and energy towards taking care of themselves and their communities, which I believe to be the most important right now. Thank you, and take care, Sarah Berg
Infusion Selected Works: Winter 2020
Featuring Or Banished A Postcard at the End of the World
A Postcard at the End of the World
by Sarah Carey Photo by Megan Chung This piece is a part of our Winter Issue of Selected Works. A little over 20 years ago, I was 9 years old and waiting for the new millennium. Between the television preaching of assorted doomsday ministers, canning vegetables, rumors from the kids at school, and my never-ending concern for our dot-matrix printer with accompanying computer, I was (mostly) convinced that the world as I knew it would cease to exist. Our computer would no longer work, the merchandise scanners at Walmart would cave in, the world wouldn’t function without a calculator. We would scrounge for food, barter with cans of baked beans, and our main form of entertainment would revert to sticks, stones, and crayons. All of this would happen, that is, if we didn’t die first in the riots that I imagined would sweep the country. As I watched the clock tick up the minutes to midnight, 11:51, 11:53, 11:55, 11:57, 11:59, I waited for it all. I waited for the end of a world where most luxuries I took for granted would vanish at the stroke of midnight. In a matter of minutes, those conveniences would be gone as the year 2000 ravaged the country from coast-to-coast. As Times Square ticked down the seconds from 10, I savored the last moments of the life I knew. At the click of midnight, fireworks popped on the screen, the New York skyline lit up, crowds cheered. But, in Washington County, Kentucky, the new millennium arrived without fanfare—just the ticking of a clock. Nothing happened. Our giant computer reverted back to 1984, and that was it. If this was the end of the world I was waiting for, it wasn’t much to write home about. A few days later I went back to school, and time marched on. Twelve years later, on the same night I once pondered the end of the world, I found myself nesting in an empty, shared hostel room in Incheon, South Korea. Around me, seven other bunk beds lay empty, as surely most tourists in need of a bed were out for a big night in Seoul, waiting for the New Year to dawn in a matter of hours. I unpacked what little belongings I had and arranged them for easy access: my hairbrush, toothbrush, and a change of clothes. The next day, New Year’s, I would catch an early Korean Air flight to Tokyo, to meet a friend and usher in 2013 in a way of which I could only dream. Yet, as I prepared in the silence of the end of 2012, I thought again about the last moments of 1999 and my life leading up to that New Year’s Eve. Even before the age of 9, my family traveled extensively, with car trips to the East Coast, up to Chicago, and down to Florida to see the beach (the near future would bring car-based trips to California and Washington State, Maine and beyond). Yet, in spite of my travels, I never imagined living, realistically, very far from Central Kentucky—much less South Korea—a country I only knew of from history books and documentaries. Certainly, the impending doom of the year 2000 would eliminate any hopes of a life abroad—or even beyond Kentucky’s state line. However, against the odds of worldwide destruction, I was now 8,000 miles away from home, living with a wonderful host family and teaching in a lovely school. Almost every day when I returned home from school, my host mother would have a traditional Korean meal simmering on the stove. My host father would take me to different fire stations where he worked on Jeju Island. During major holidays like Seollal and Chuseok, I was treated as part of the family—not just a temporary visitor from afar. I learned to shrug off the shame of nudity in a local jjimjilbang, and when I contracted pink eye, my host family dropped all their weekend plans and took me to a local doctor. Together, we fished for snails in the ocean and ate lots of cake. It was almost as if I never left Central Kentucky. Life in Korea was different compared to those final days of 1999, where I wondered if I would ever log onto a computer again. Life was simple and I had little to worry about. On December 31st, 2012, a few hours before midnight, I slid between the rough sheets of the hostel bed and turned out the lights. My mind hummed with anticipation of my trip to Tokyo: the lights, the sounds, the food. Knowing I would soon add another country to my list of places visited added to my zeal. I thought of my host family still on Jeju Island, such kind and generous people. I thought of the kind hostel owners who radiated hospitality. I thought again of myself on that same night in 1999, wondering what life would be like in the future. After all thoughts concluded, I drifted off to sleep, and the New Year came and went without any fanfare. Through this rebellion of peaceful rest, it was as if I sent a postcard to the 1999 version of myself waiting for the end of the world. I was letting her know that everything would be okay. Sarah Carey was a 2012-2013 ETA at Seogwipo Girls Middle School in Seogwipo, Jeju Island. After returning from Korea, Sarah taught a variety of subjects in Kentucky, New York, and briefly in China. In 2015 she received her master’s degree in Education with an emphasis on English as a Second Language from Georgetown College (Kentucky). She is now a graduate student in Applied Linguistics at Teachers College, Columbia University.