Good News

By Laura Evans

I miss groggy steam rising

my coffee maker, growling over grounds 

begrudgingly distilling joy‑scented promise

I miss tracing cracked leather lines

my steering wheel, sliding through my hands

relinquished for two tense grips: bus pole and handphone 

I miss unripened shades of green 

my weekly cluster of bananas, awaiting consumption  

now I wait, resigned, for fruit in its season

Miss 

understanding conversations in passing 

solving crosswords with my mother each morning 

testing the bounds of my physicality  

Craving such small comforts

like knowing 

how green lights cycle at neighborhood intersections

which chocolate milk tastes most like my childhood

what unbothered street offers space to dance unobserved

But twice daily, commute between harbor and hills 

painted in sunlight, I am overwhelmed 

sitting witness, stenographer of this serendipity

The good news is:

These days I distill my own joy 

dance in the morning 

suppress a smile, work myself awake 

The good news is:

A bowl of soup needs no translation 

love, placed on the table before me

its grammar, conjugations of compassion 

The good news is: 

I can call home 

miles of distance, hours of time 

mere ellipsis when I hear “Hello?” 

The good news is: 

I reinhabit my neglected body

as I sweat and I breathe 

blue belt on black gi1 

The good news is:

I am content in this

Life: collection of iterations on old habits. I’m rebuilding

Connection: the kindness of humanity, my anchor

Gratitude: embodied, the sun rising over my skin and the sea.

  1. The Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu uniform. ↩︎